it is taken from one of my favourite books,
love comes to those who still hope although they’ve been
disappointed;
to those who still believe,although they’ve been betrayed;
to those who still need to love,although they’ve been
hurt before;
and to those who have the courage and faith
to build trust again..
(Bermain-main Dengan Cinta-Bagus Takwin,mengambil
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Just now, i enjoy being negative..
like now, when i think death is close to me,
that i have the opportunity to end my life,
it feels good,
to know that i have a chance to choose my version of death,
it feels amazing,
i am thinking to end my live, not because i get bored,
but because i have that moment, that chance to wear black,
to wear perfume, to comb my hair, to clean up myself, even to pray to GOD to deliver another questions,
before i choose to stop living…..
when will this time come again?
i don’t know..
to have a moment to choose the way you want for returning your soul to THE BELONGER,
to prepare your death…
and finally decide to postpone It,
because there Is screaming sounds Inside of you,
not because you have a motivation to live,
but because you have unfinished stuff Inside of you,
wait……..suddenly your not sure about killing yourself..
well…..like I have said,
it feels good to have that moment,
the moment that will makes me always remember,
I am so fuckin’ lucky to have It,
to have a thought to end my soul,
and im In a good condition to feel It
